Day 1

Well Folks, today was really bad day to start this journey...its as if I jinxed myself. It was one of those days at work where I knew I would need a bottle of wine (or 6) when I got home by 8am...and was in tears by 830. It was actually foreshadowed in a dream I had last night during another rough night of sleep; kinda creepy.  I came home and hit up the tub of ice cream in our freezer...no bowl necessary. Luckily I didn't take down any wine at all, because after my little ice cream coma I fell into on the couch, I got a really bad phone call. My little brother called me saying I needed to come quickly. Our 14 year old husky/golden had taken a turn for the worst and it wasn't looking good. Of course I jumped off the couch and hurried straight there. Bucky had hidden himself away behind the wood pile in our back yard. His breathing was shallow, his eyes sunken, and clearly suffering. We called every vet clinic in a 20 mile radius and beyond to see if anyone did house calls. No such luck. We ended up rolling him onto a sheet and carrying him up the hill to the garage and into the back of the truck for a trip to the vet; knowing in the back of our minds, our Bucky was probably not going to return with us. As a family we agreed to end his suffering. We could tell he just wasn't the same spunky pup lately and we hated seeing him in pain. Us kids held his paws and scratched his ears as the sparkle left his eyes. No dog will ever take the place of Buck. He was one of a kind.
Anyhow, there has to be a little good in every day. No pictures to share on day 1 but I do have a lot to be thankful for. 1. The wonderful ladies I work with that helped me out so greatly today and helped me keep myself together. You're all amazing, and I'm lucky to have such great co-workers. 2. Im thankful for my health, and the health of my loved ones. Working in the setting I do, you pick up on a lot of aspects of life that you may have taken for granted in the past. Lastly, Im thankful for 14 irreplaceable years of memories with our pup, Buck. No other dog will ever fill his paw prints on our hearts. I hope he is hitting up mom for some PB as I know she probably has a pretty good stash up there worth sharing with him. Love you both. Actually 2 more things Im grateful for this evening, a hot shower and a warm comfy bed.  Good night all. Hopefully tomorrow will bring a brighter day.